Dr's visit

So today was my checkup with my rheumy..just feeling kinda weird about it!!  I guess I'm really realizing that my health is more fragile than I thought.  I always knew that having SLE wasn't anything minor but when I saw all the other things that were listed on that form, it was like reality slapped me in the face!!  It really made me sad...I don't wanna be sick...I want to be a normal 30 yr old...I hate being the youngest person in the waiting room, thinking wow I'm probably aching just as much as that lil old man on the walker...hell, who knows, I might be on a walker soon too!!  It's soooo unfair.  Maybe if I clicked my heels together, we will all be cured!!  A girl can wish!!