Downturn

Just as I thought I thought this breakup through and started to have a better insight in it yesterday, today I take a downturn.
Is this familiar? Yes, it is totally identical to the grief I was going thru.  There are better days and slam! there are worse days.  It swings like a yo yo.
Dear God, why?  Don't you think I have gone through enough of grief drill already?  And do I need to get it perfected??? You have such a humor and wish I have the same humor in combat.  I will remain faithful to You for I know Your plan is always divine and perfect.  Meanwhile, please instill peace in my heart.  But for now, I guess the anti anxiety pill is a quick fix.  Thanks for that.