Down today

Miss him a lot today, miss our weekends together. Hating myself for feeling like this. I'm stuck in bed crying and he's probably already out with other women. I need to get better, I need to find myself again, I need to know that being alone is ok. I jave have to stop crying, eat, live....... Honestly what he did was shitty and maybe he was cheating all the time but I did love him. He trashed my love, disregarded my feelings, was totally selfish ..... I have to remember that and move the fuck on.