Down Again!
I have been "choosing" to be happy and hopeful for a while now. It has seemed to work but then I realized I am drawing strengh for my happiness from a very unhealthy place. My almost nonexistant outside chance of getting Tony back. My world and happiness still revolves around him! Why??? Why can't I find happiness without him?!? Why won't God send me someone who makes me forget about him? How long is this supposed to take! Is true, unconditional love (as I have for him) really forever, even if it is only onesided? Today is my daughter's Bday and here I sit still thinking about his stupid ass! Why do we make people "our world", "our everything" so we feel incomplete without them. I want to be whole and happy without him so badly! Onward I go, to who knows where, alone!
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I think a part of us will always love them no matter what. We can\'t continue to punish ourselves by living in the past or holding on to what once was, we have to pick up the pieces and move forward. Only time will heal our souls, another person will only complicate things. Sure they might take our mind off of them for a while but, love remembers. We have to be happy with ourselves first, before we can make someone else happy. We have to take one day at a time and focus on what we still have and not what we\'ve lost. Everything will come together for us when its supposed to. Just because they didnt want us, doesnt mean someone else doesnt. Just know, Im here for you, I truly feel you pain.