doubt 2

just thought i'd post a little update....no i don't feel any better...but i did talk to the crisis line for a bit and decided for now gonna take my clonazepam and hopefully sleep soon.  I took double again...I know I shouldn't...I'm just so desperate for sleep and I know it's still a safe range...and far better then taking an overdose.  So...anyway....took the clonazepam...getting ready for bed...hopefully sleeping soon.  If I end up needing to call the crisis line again then I will and they will help me get to the hospital at the point if I feel it's necessary.  I want to fight this battle from home as long as possible.  Plus I think my friend is being admitted according to last txt I got...and don't want to chance being there at same time.  I know it sounds mean...but if I do have to go into hospital while she's there I will request a different hospital.  I just feel it's in both our best interest that way.  With any luck I'll get sleep and tomorrow will be a better day.