dont want to go to good friday
Well this month my family is doing two events one was my god childs bday which was on Sat and going to that I didnt really want to as of my family and the stress of it all.. but I wanted to see him so I went.. It was a horrible day with family pretending I was not there or that my thought didnt matter, and just non stop crap all day... It really was hard, but I am glad I went for him.
This friday we have the fish fry and I am really not wanting to go.. the kids wont be there... so really that takes any reason why I would want to.. It would be my family and just based on how the last event went... I really dont want to go.. But if I dont go then well that comes with more stress and issues of me not attending a family event.... I have never missed on unless I was not invited or told about it... Which makes it hard for me to really say no I am not going as it is only going to make me feel bad...
I am trying to get a friend to attend with me so that its not as bad... but really... I dont know if I want to put a friend in that position... really I dont know... I just want to be able to talk there and have someone listen vs what my family does... stressing me out big time!
This friday we have the fish fry and I am really not wanting to go.. the kids wont be there... so really that takes any reason why I would want to.. It would be my family and just based on how the last event went... I really dont want to go.. But if I dont go then well that comes with more stress and issues of me not attending a family event.... I have never missed on unless I was not invited or told about it... Which makes it hard for me to really say no I am not going as it is only going to make me feel bad...
I am trying to get a friend to attend with me so that its not as bad... but really... I dont know if I want to put a friend in that position... really I dont know... I just want to be able to talk there and have someone listen vs what my family does... stressing me out big time!
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