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I'm feeling down today. I've been second guessing if I actually found the babies heartbeat or if it was really just mine. I must be really out of shape because I'll be trying to listen to it laying down and I'll hear mine in like 2 or 3 different spots then I'll stand up and I thought I heard the babies but today I was counting it, because stupid me didnt order a digital one, and mine heartbeat speeds up really fast when I stand up. So I think I heard mine and just thought it was the babies. Which is one thing bringing me down. I think another is I'm almost 11 weeks and I'm starting to lose most of my symptoms the sickness are starting to go away for the most part I still get sick sometimes. My boobs certain days hurt so bad then other days they dont hurt at all. I'm just feeling crappy in general I just wish I could have an ultrasound to make sure things are ok. I'm so used to having them every week or atleast every other week and its been almost 2 weeks since I had one and I dont really know when I'll get another one. I have that consultation at the high risk clinic on Friday and I dont know what they'll do that day. So I guess I can just hope they either listen and find the babies heartbeat or they do an ultrasound. I guess I'm just in need of some reasurance. I'm starting to lose my confidence. I thought for sure this baby was going to be the one but now I'm starting to think something could be wrong. What if I go and theres no heartbeat. Maybe I should have waited a few weeks to get the doppler that way I knew for sure I could hear it. Maybe I really did hear it and I'm just going completely nuts. Another thing is I've been having some pains in my lower sides. The logical reason would be growing and that I am doing I'm getting so big already. But to me it also could be somethings wrong, which is more than likely not the reason. My husbands friend came over lastnight and told my husband in private "Monicas starting to show". My husband ran into the living room and was like hunnie Mike called you fat,....then told me the story. Which dont get my wrong I'm happy I'm getting big already. I want everyone in the world to know I'm pregnant. I'm just nervous. Well thanks for listening to me guys. Pray for me that I start feeling more confident about this pregnancy and I get reasured everything is perfectly fine on Friday. I mean theres really no reason for there to be something wrong. This is the furthest I've ever made it you think I would be more confident than ever before. Gotta go. Hugs and luv, Monica
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Well I know what you are thinking and feeling is completely normal especially after all you\'ve been through. It is a little early for you to be able to find the heartbeat, I was told it\'s easiter to find after 14 weeks, so don\'t stress too much. I know it\'s hard when you have nothing reassuring you that everything is fine. Hopefully Friday will bring additional reassurance. BIG HUGS
don\'t worry too much about not hearing baby\'s heartbeat yet, my ob said they won\'t even attempt to use a dopplar until about 14 weeks. they want to make absolute sure that they\'ll hear it. i have pain in my hips sometimes too. i read somewhere that your hips grow like a million times their normal size when you have a baby. well, not really a million times but you get the idea!! try not to worry, i\'ll be thinking of you all the way up to friday!!! good luck!!!
starting to show is the best part of being pregnant! :)
Try not to worry too much, I know that is easier said then done. A lot of symptoms start to lessen at this point in a pregnancy. I actually never really had sore breast and that scared me to death, but everything turned out great. Good luck with everything. You are in my prayers.
I completely identify with a lot of what you said. I\'m constantly evaluating my symptoms and their comings and goings. That said, I think most women experience variations in symptoms and go on to have healthy pregnancies. Thinking of you and hoping for the best!
You will know when u hear the babies heartbeat. You won\'t even second guess it. I automatically knew. It is super super fast to where u almost can\'t keep up to count it. If it is stressing you out put it away for a couple of weeks. Remember I went to the hospital at 12 weeks and the nurse couldnt find it with their doppler. It is really hard. Even at 13 weeks is was hard to find. I know for me I had to do it down by my ovaries and tilt the head of the doppler in and down or up. It takes awhile to figure it out. Once u find it though it will get easier and easier. I hope u can get more comfortable in this pregnancy. I know I was concerned and nervous the whole time. After what u have been through It is understandable. Try to enjoy it though.