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You know sometimes, i just dont know what to do? Tonight i sit here alone again, analyzing my position in life, and how i got here... Im so so damn alone it is stupid, My family dont keep in contact that often, my children growing up and not here so often anymore. My partner who i adore and he not live with me, and is so so male and i cant explain that exactly. 9 years we have been dating, and i hardly see him ,,,,, i am such a romantic He knows that fact. but we seem to be so apart from each other, more than we are together, and i know that he wants it that way... Yes he can say its work, as he has long hours, but we only see each other 2 max 3 times a week, and for the rest of the time, im alone,,,,,, You know in 9 years he hasnt bought me a ring, that would be nice, a commitment of somesort. Peachy=Alone=Sad The only thing i have ever wanted in life, was for a family who cared, and if i couldnt have that, i wanted to make a family who was with me and stayed . Lets not go there with my ex- husband the abuser who bashed me and broke my bones,,, So you know what , i did not get my dream of having my own complete family .. Im so alone, it makes me sick , and l have no friends And then viola , god gave me pd as what a punishment! Everyone here seems to have friends and family, l have no-one ... sad sad and feel sick No-one will read this l bet, and l dont know what to do.... All i do is work to keep me sane
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I am your friend.I wish only that you lived closer so we could hang out and visit. What can I do to help? You are one special lady .
Shelley
I am sorry to hear this. I have gone through this since my divorce although I haven\'t had a long standing relationship. the kids growing up and being busy is sure hard to take after spending your life being with them and taking care of them. I get pretty lonesome some days. I wonder sometimes if it is a forever thing. Hope you feel better soon and your really positive personality pops up again. Good Luck
You\'re wrong....I read it, every word. I\'m sorry you\'re feeling so alone, and hopeless. And about your rotten ex husband and boyfriend who won\'t commit. No one deserves that.
pd is not a punishment from God. But some dreams do die...I had plans, and I have cried big tears like you have over their loss. I have my faith to keep me going, and I\'ve noticed that things are beginning to change. I never had much time for friends while running my own business, and now I do....so I am now deepening friendships, joining new groups, and making new friends. Even volunteering 1 morning a week. I\'m single too, and that\'s a tough one I agree. Got traded in on a younger model many years ago. I only have 1 son and 1 sister in another state. So my family is pretty tiny. My life is drastically different than I thought it would be but it is becoming full of love.
I\'m not sure what I\'m trying to say except there is hope and there is a future for you that doesn\'t have to be bleak. Peachy = lovable and worthwhile.
Peachey,
Cut it out. Think back Hawaii, natural classes, and the promise of another vacation with --- in the near future. True or not?
I know how depressed we can let ourselves get, it would be easy to just slip into it, but you have to fight it with all your might. That is the most destructive thing about this disease. And you are too strong to go there. Do whatever you need to get out of this slump. What can we do to help?
Annette is this beautiful lady
she can be just a little bit shady
when she wears little tight dresses
no one ever ever messes
just a look could send you to hades.
Smile awhile and when you smile it spreads for a mile.
luv ya Sass