Done Trying to Hold Onto a Fairy Tale...
I'm done trying to hold onto a Fairy Tale. I give up ! I'm not going to continue to torture Myself like that anymore ! I thought so strongly - for so long - that the " Guy " I mentioned in my Last Journal Entry - was the " Right One " for Me ! In Fact, I thought He was the Perfect One for Me ! I was Positive that He was My True " Soul Mate ". He had told Me many many times that He Loved Me, but now I see that those were just " Pretty Words " to Him, and not much more. I think now that He was simply telling Me what He felt that I wanted to Hear from Him, and He didn't see any harm to telling Me those things even IF He never Truly meant Them !
Well... I'm Here to tell Him... and Anyone Else that happens to read this, that doing that is completely WRONG ! It's ALWAYS best to tell the TRUTH ! Don't sugar coat things just because You're sure that the Other Person won't want to Hear the Real Truth. They'll find out the Truth One Way, or Another, and it's best that They hear it from You instead of hearing it 2nd, or even 3rd hand, later on. The only thing is that People that do things like this are completely oblivious to the Truth. All they see is that doing it " Their Way " is easier for Them ! At least that's how They see it, I think. They want to Avoid Conflict at all cost, but what They're ignoring is that by " Avoiding Conflict " they're showing the Other Person that They never truly cared for Them. At least that's how They make it seem by Their Actions. How can a Person be so Self-Centered ?!?!?!
I don't Need that in My Life. I need Someone that will Truly Respect Me, and know the Value of Honesty. Plus Someone that will Truly understand that I mean what I say, I don't " Play " and " Pretend " like so many do Online.
I am WHO I am... and that's it. Plain and Simple. If someone doesn't like that, then Tough! Was it mostly My Fault I wonder....
Did I expect Too Much from Him ?
Maybe I made Him out to be my " Mr. Perfect " too quickly, without giving Him a Real Chance to show Me what He was Truly about. Maybe.
But since He's chosen this Path of Silence...
Now I'll Never Truly Know.
But I'm NOT going to Hold My Breath for a Fairy Tale that Never Truly Existed....
I Only THOUGHT it did.
Besides, I have TOO MANY OTHER THINGS going on in My Life right now.
I have a Rocker/Recliner Chair I need Sell somehow. I made a BIG Mistake by buying it Online. I'll NEVER make that Mistake again ! Now I have a Brand New Chair that I can't even use ! UGH !
PLUS... I need to get Someone in My Family to come over here, and help Me move some furniture around to hopefully make enough Extra Room so I can TRY to use my Power Scooter Chair INSIDE my Apartment even though it's a 4-Wheel Power Scooter Chair. I need to start using it at least somewhat, since I need an Extra place to Sit since the New Chair didn't work out, and my Older Recliner is falling apart on me now. UGH !
PLUS.... As usual, the Pain I deal with Every Day is Present and then some !
The Pain has been Terrible lately to a Point where I barely want to get out of Bed in the Mornings. Just getting Out of Bed is a Very Painful Chore in itself ! Then throughout the Day, and into the Evening and Night time, Every little thing I try to do is a VERY Painful Chore ! I'm so Sick and Tired of being in so MUCH PAIN !
Well... I'm Here to tell Him... and Anyone Else that happens to read this, that doing that is completely WRONG ! It's ALWAYS best to tell the TRUTH ! Don't sugar coat things just because You're sure that the Other Person won't want to Hear the Real Truth. They'll find out the Truth One Way, or Another, and it's best that They hear it from You instead of hearing it 2nd, or even 3rd hand, later on. The only thing is that People that do things like this are completely oblivious to the Truth. All they see is that doing it " Their Way " is easier for Them ! At least that's how They see it, I think. They want to Avoid Conflict at all cost, but what They're ignoring is that by " Avoiding Conflict " they're showing the Other Person that They never truly cared for Them. At least that's how They make it seem by Their Actions. How can a Person be so Self-Centered ?!?!?!
I don't Need that in My Life. I need Someone that will Truly Respect Me, and know the Value of Honesty. Plus Someone that will Truly understand that I mean what I say, I don't " Play " and " Pretend " like so many do Online.
I am WHO I am... and that's it. Plain and Simple. If someone doesn't like that, then Tough! Was it mostly My Fault I wonder....
Did I expect Too Much from Him ?
Maybe I made Him out to be my " Mr. Perfect " too quickly, without giving Him a Real Chance to show Me what He was Truly about. Maybe.
But since He's chosen this Path of Silence...
Now I'll Never Truly Know.
But I'm NOT going to Hold My Breath for a Fairy Tale that Never Truly Existed....
I Only THOUGHT it did.
Besides, I have TOO MANY OTHER THINGS going on in My Life right now.
I have a Rocker/Recliner Chair I need Sell somehow. I made a BIG Mistake by buying it Online. I'll NEVER make that Mistake again ! Now I have a Brand New Chair that I can't even use ! UGH !
PLUS... I need to get Someone in My Family to come over here, and help Me move some furniture around to hopefully make enough Extra Room so I can TRY to use my Power Scooter Chair INSIDE my Apartment even though it's a 4-Wheel Power Scooter Chair. I need to start using it at least somewhat, since I need an Extra place to Sit since the New Chair didn't work out, and my Older Recliner is falling apart on me now. UGH !
PLUS.... As usual, the Pain I deal with Every Day is Present and then some !
The Pain has been Terrible lately to a Point where I barely want to get out of Bed in the Mornings. Just getting Out of Bed is a Very Painful Chore in itself ! Then throughout the Day, and into the Evening and Night time, Every little thing I try to do is a VERY Painful Chore ! I'm so Sick and Tired of being in so MUCH PAIN !
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