Don't know where to go from here
i don't know what I've done or why my son hate's me so much. It's tearing me apart. He won't come out of his room. Anytime I say anything to him he starts yelling and swearing at me. I just don't know what to do. First thing when I wake up I get cussed out. How can I live with this? I can't. t's making me physically ill. Headaches, sleep disturbances, crying, sweating, shaking and my ulcer is going crazy.
Watching him destroy his life hurts me so much!!! He won't let me help. He won't even talk to me like a person. I've suggested going to see a therapist and he just got mad. "Not everyone lives on pills like you.".He is tearing the family apart and he doesn't seem to care. As a matter of fact he tells me he doesn't care. Every day he says that.
My mother died when I was 18. It was the one major event that tore me apart for life. I have never recovered from her long suffering illness and death. How can he hate his mother. How can he thow me away. I would give anything to just see my mother one more time and he doesn't appreciate the gift that he has been given. I've been alone since the day she died, 1979, that's a long time to miss a person so desperately. I don't understand him at all. And I am afraid that if something happens to me, I am at high risk for a heart attack, that he will blame himself like I did. I fought with my mother too. I was so angry that she was leaving me that I was a teenage alcoholic. I was completely out of control. I have never been able to forgive myself for how I treated her. And I can't tell her I am sorry. That has really messed me up, I don't want the same thing to happen to him.
Who knows I may not have much longer. My mother died at 48 my brother at 49....but dad is 91. I just don't want this to be it. I want to enjoy my family before I go. I want to give them memories, good ones.
I've tried cutting off the x-box, that's all I've got. I can't stop feeding him. I've tried talking to him about going to school, gtting a liscnse, getting a job....he just yells at me. I've run out of idea's and I am so-o tired of this.
I just don't know what to do
Watching him destroy his life hurts me so much!!! He won't let me help. He won't even talk to me like a person. I've suggested going to see a therapist and he just got mad. "Not everyone lives on pills like you.".He is tearing the family apart and he doesn't seem to care. As a matter of fact he tells me he doesn't care. Every day he says that.
My mother died when I was 18. It was the one major event that tore me apart for life. I have never recovered from her long suffering illness and death. How can he hate his mother. How can he thow me away. I would give anything to just see my mother one more time and he doesn't appreciate the gift that he has been given. I've been alone since the day she died, 1979, that's a long time to miss a person so desperately. I don't understand him at all. And I am afraid that if something happens to me, I am at high risk for a heart attack, that he will blame himself like I did. I fought with my mother too. I was so angry that she was leaving me that I was a teenage alcoholic. I was completely out of control. I have never been able to forgive myself for how I treated her. And I can't tell her I am sorry. That has really messed me up, I don't want the same thing to happen to him.
Who knows I may not have much longer. My mother died at 48 my brother at 49....but dad is 91. I just don't want this to be it. I want to enjoy my family before I go. I want to give them memories, good ones.
I've tried cutting off the x-box, that's all I've got. I can't stop feeding him. I've tried talking to him about going to school, gtting a liscnse, getting a job....he just yells at me. I've run out of idea's and I am so-o tired of this.
I just don't know what to do
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