Don't know what to do.

What do you do when you go to work and the energy from everyone there makes you more depressed, come home to  te energy feeling better but one wrong remark and the energy is even more negative, go to sleep and you wake up screaming and crying. My suicidal thoughts have been so much worse. My parents are moving back home to be near me. They want me to quit my job and move in with them. I would lose any freedom I have left and my only income would be my stypen which is from the VA for me going to college. I've been burning myself more, I've been taking atleast 12 of my .5 klonopin a day and it calms me down but then my thoughts start going out of control and I am even to the point where I just want to leave in the middle of the night after everyone's alseep, leave my prewritten suicide note, and lay down in the middle of the street after taking all of my anxiety, sleeping, and antidepressants. I can't keep being either the rock for every one or the matt to whipe their dirty feet on. Anytime I try to stand up for myself I'm beeing a bitch.... I am so close to being done..........