Don't know what to do next
Alonso remains the great man that he is...our only problem is this...He wants to get married in December....I was married for 20 years...I want to get married...but not yet
I don't know what is wrong with me. I love him. He is kind, understanding, I can express my point of view with him and even in times when he doesn't agree with me we find a middle ground were our love does remains strong...
His kids are just great people and my daughter now call him more often than she calls me...she really likes him. She even told me if you don't marry him you are out of your mind....
But deep inside I just like how we are now. I guess this comes from my marriage, I have this doubt that once we get married then everything will change and Alonso will finally get tired of me and just wake up one day and tell me...I just don't love you anymore...I know it is not rational.
And this is very unfair to Alonso...I guess I am a little afraid of the Happiness Everafter...what if...
Weird thing is that I do want to marry him, there is nobody else I will rather spend the rest of my days with...
arggggggghhh.....What is wrong with me?
I don't know what is wrong with me. I love him. He is kind, understanding, I can express my point of view with him and even in times when he doesn't agree with me we find a middle ground were our love does remains strong...
His kids are just great people and my daughter now call him more often than she calls me...she really likes him. She even told me if you don't marry him you are out of your mind....
But deep inside I just like how we are now. I guess this comes from my marriage, I have this doubt that once we get married then everything will change and Alonso will finally get tired of me and just wake up one day and tell me...I just don't love you anymore...I know it is not rational.
And this is very unfair to Alonso...I guess I am a little afraid of the Happiness Everafter...what if...
Weird thing is that I do want to marry him, there is nobody else I will rather spend the rest of my days with...
arggggggghhh.....What is wrong with me?
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Have you told Alonzo all of what you have written here? If he\'s as understanding as you think he will work out a compromise with you. Give you the time you need to let go of more of the past.
If he doesn\'t then perhaps he\'s not the right man for you. I hope he will understand and give you the time you need.
I think am just freaking out but I will talk to
Al thank you trisha