Don’t Know How To Feel

My husband and I have been trying to become pregnant for two years now with no luck. I went to see an obgyn four months ago and she suggested using ovulation test strips for three months and see how that works for us. Although I had LH surges, the three months have passed with no such luck. As I’m preparing myself to see my doctor again next week to start an infertility treatment plan, I received news today that my friend of over 10 years is 11 weeks   pregnant. Deep down I am happy for her, but at the same time I feel so angry and hurt. Maybe a bit of jealousy in there.  My heart hurts a pain I’ve never felt before.  Am I selfish for feeling that way? I feel like a terrible human being for even feel like this. I’m scared for what we are going to find out after starting some tests to see why we can’t conceive. Maybe it’s just not possible for us to get pregnant, or the cost will just be so out of reach that won’t be an answer for us. I’m praying for serenity.....