Doing ok

OK today I'm doing ok. I did ok yesterday I only cried a few times. I cried when my husband called me at work and told me the animal clinic sent us a card and he read it too me. Then he said I prebably shouldnt have read that to you while you were at work. I was like no probably not. Today is better. I havent cried yet. I also was able to search online and find some memorial things. Nothing I want to buy yet but I looked. Which is an improvment. I usually get upset at night when I'm laying on the couch watching TV and I know that he should be laying on my lap with me. So thats depressing. Did I mention I havent taken my depression medicine since I thought I was pregnant which has been about 4 weeks now. I dont want to start it again and then have to stop again when I start trying to get pregnant again in a few months, or when ever I get this surgery and they tell me I'm allowed to try again. Well just wanted to let you guys know I'm doing ok today. I appriciate all of you guys and your opinions and support. Thanks so much. I dont know how I would get by without you guys. Hugs too all of you. MONICA