Doing ok today

Today I'm doing ok, I need to have a talk with my parents and ask them for their help. Which is very difficult for me. I am trying to consolidate my debt so that I can make payments that I  can afford. Right now I am just barely treading water and behind on a few also.
 
As far as the gambling, I feel pretty good. Trying to keep myself busy, and focus on recovery. I just keep trying to remind myself how good it will feel to pay bills and be able to buy groceries without a feeling of doom.