Doing it for me

In life we control our attitude toward a situation. Today I have decided to really take ownership of my life and the decisions I have made (including the poor ones) and turning into a positive thing.
 
If my H won't treat me the way I want him to, then I will love him anyway. I will treat him in the way I'd like him to treat me anyway. For, who? For me. Whether or not he reciprocate it doesn't matter, because at the end of the day I have vowed not to make the same poor decision i made by having an affair. I want to leave this earth knowing that i tried to lead a good life. treat people well. If my H sees a positive change in me and wants to try again, then he will also do this for him. not for me or the kids.
 
I'm not going to feel sorry for myself anymore. what good did that do the last time. I am in control of my own life. I know the person I am. I am not a bad person. As human beings we were never meant to be perfect, just authentic with ourselves. What is my authentic self? I am learning this everyday.