doing good

things are going well. even though i did jump into another relationship i know it's a good one and will last. i could not be happier to be honest. My ex is finally letting up and moving on. I've cut him off and stopped talking to in general. I'm happy after two months of being single to finally find someone that gets me. i have also been doing a lot better in Spanish class and I'm improving in all my other classes too. things are going well physically too, I've been free of cuts and burns for a while. i joined a volley ball clinic and I'm making so many new friends.  I have been using other "products," but only socially and nothing addictive. i do stress over a lot and i worry that i have a serious anxiety problems, but i think i am working on them well. i am over a happy person like i used to be and i have a over a good level of confidence for my self, i think. 
i worry though that i have been having random suicidal thoughts, but i know i would never go through with it for the fact that it would hurt and upset a lot of people. I like my life, but i get in really low times where i feel like I'm just not worth anything, so am i bipolar, depressed, anxiety? i just don't understand what's wrong with me. 
i know everyone has their "down days," but i feel like when i start to think about it i do it a lot, and i just don't think it's normal. Also my parents are going through counseling, so it's just a lot on me. i still stay positive and happy, trust me, i just have some down days.