does anyone understand?
Does anyone know how I feel. To lose someone to somebody else. To lose my sweetheart to wed another woman, before I had a chance to tell him how I feel. I was just too late! Why did I leave it so long? Why didn't I move faster. It's so painful and I can't get over it I don't know if I ever will. Even though I've found someone else - it's not the same and it never can be. My heart has broken and I missed my chance.. I know there is more than one person for everyone but it's never the same. I don't know if I will ever be the same again. But I hope to heal from this some day and accept... I want to throw out the old photo's from our relationship. Our beautiful relationship. We were so happy and I don't know why it ended. We just let life slide.. I want to get rid of them so I'm not so haunted but it's so terribly difficul to let go. I want to see him but I can't - I'm afraid if I did it would shatter me. It's hard enough looking at the photo's or even to see that another man likes me and wants my affections. It's too late for me to end up how I wanted and thought seemed best. I hope that I marry the right man for me one day and don't miss my chance again.
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I don\'t know exactly how it feels to be in your situation, but I have been in so many where I would have done so many things differently if I could go back. But, I try to tell myself that there is only so much that I can control right now, and I need to do what I can* do now. It is easy to say \"would have, could have, should have\", but that really gets me nowhere. I try to stay away from that.
*lots of hugs* I wish you happiness in the future. I know it sounds painful, but this relationship wasn\'t meant to be. You might find someone that\'s even better for you. Never lose hope. Use this time to focus on you. If it were me, I\'d take a break from relationships just for a little while. I hope you feel better. Things will turn out for the better, you\'ll see.
I also wanted to mention that I\'m going through a divorce. I married a person whom I thought cared about me, but it turns out he lied a lot in the years before our marriage and he is a different person. Sometimes things happen - it\'s not our fault, but we have to move on. I am glad to get away from him because I don\'t want to be with someone who doesn\'t love me or even care about me a little.