does anyone understand?

Does anyone know how I feel. To lose someone to somebody else. To lose my sweetheart to wed another woman, before I had a chance to tell him how I feel. I was just too late! Why did I leave it so long? Why didn't I move faster.   It's so painful and I can't get over it I don't know if I ever will. Even though I've found someone else - it's not the same and it never can be. My heart has broken and I missed my chance.. I know there is more than one person for everyone but it's never the same.  I don't know if I will ever be the same again. But I hope to heal from this some day and accept... I want to throw out the old photo's from our relationship. Our beautiful relationship. We were so happy and I don't know why it ended. We just let life slide.. I want to get rid of them so I'm not so haunted but it's so terribly difficul to let go. I want to see him but I can't - I'm afraid if I did it would shatter me. It's hard enough looking at the photo's or even to see that another man likes me and wants my affections. It's too late for me to end up how I wanted and thought seemed best. I hope that I marry the right man for me one day and don't miss my chance again.