Doctors appoint moved forward

I honestly feel like all I do is whinge!
I know I do most of my venting on here, so thankyou everyone.
 
I called up today the Professor and moved my appoint to May 12th. I can't deal with this pain anymore, it's so depressing =(
Painkillers wont work either, even the new 'different' ones the GP put me on =(
I feel sorry for my bf, I mean all I seem to be in is contant pain and when I can manage it or im okish, I try and be positive and outgoing and do things, go out and so forth but I get hit with pain somewhere along the road.
Our sex life has died so much since my operation - im in pain all the time or bleeding and in pain! =(
He is amazing - I mean we have our ups and downs, but he didnt sign up for this, nore did I, however he can go at anytime..But he stays, and comforts me. He's my biggest rock in all this.
I hope some answers come with the 12th of May appoint. Im praying!