Doctor's visit was a bit disapointing, not on his part

SO I went in for chronic pain. We both decided twenty milligrams a day one of those all day things, once twice daily morphine tabs. Only my pharmacy doesn't carry it. And thanks to my loving caring pharmacist and I mean that positivitily, he doesn't carry that, and prally won't order it just for me, expecially if my insurance says no. I I called in emergency. What do I do now suffer all weekend? Can't you people page my doctor so he can mail me a perscription of oxycotin like I asked to take as needed with this bull? On top of it it has exasperated my stress level, which he will not rais my aaaxnax. Four mill once a day is enough I guess, so why do I keep panicing? Is it in my head? Is it too much sick time, and not enough balance in my life? I know I need a healthy balance of friends, healthy good ones, and ones that love me for the sexy lady I am, who care for me even if I misbehave. Which is one of my favorite passtimes. I get away with what I can hehehee. I do it out of impulse conrol which when I am suffering, usaullly comes out in negative ways, so to turn that into something positive I wlll do my art work and still miss my friends on the Sabbot. I have to miss My sabbot Halloween, SHaimain because I am still prally contagtious, plus i'm plum worn out. Light a candle for me and say healing with my name it will work. Please and for Cousin DOrthy to go fast and stay out of pain like the rest of us chronic diseasers. Love your friend now and future, Lonewolf, HEidi Heidster NEver Heinie or Heidi ho ho  I DARE YOU JUST ONCE> SICKE just dont call me those names ever, cause Karma is strong in my mind. Love ya, HEidi