doctor's appointment.....

so i had my doctor's appointment on monday morning...it went good and when i went back to get weighed i asked the nurse if i could be weighed with my back to the numbers and she said that she wouldn't  tell me that she did this all the time......so i was kiinda glad that she had done this before....well after she weighed me we went through blood pressure, meds. etc. etc.....then she said she had to weigh me again because she didn't remember what it was...so i went on again and we went back in the room and she said,"well i can tell you that you lost A LOT of weight since you were here last time...." and i just kind of caved into myself and the urges to restrict got strong again.....i was kind of frustrated....i thought that if she had done this befiore she shouldn't make comments like that...i dunno, it fed the urge and i have irrational thoughts....like maybe the reason i lost so much weight was because i restricted but that makes zero sense because i've been eating for the past few weeks so i guess that's good....i dunno.....i just wish all of this was easier