Do you still believe in love?
When I was younger I believe in unconditional, undying, passionate, always and forever love, love will conquer it all type. When I got married I thought it was forever, that our love will conquered all (so naive!!!!!!), that no matter what if we stand together we could face the world. Never imagined that I would be getting divorced, that wasnt part of the plan. I've never been the highly romantic mushy type, I don't need love poems or to be called pooh bear, I just wanted somebody to love me for I was, with all my flaws, somebody to talk to, somebody to listen, ocassional romantic gesture, loving words, a hug, a kiss, somebody to hold my hand, to cuddle with, somebody that I could count on to be there when things were good but also when things were bad.
Sadly I don't believe in that love anymore, I don't believe in forevers and always, maybe passionate but not undying love. I don't need anybody to die for me but somebody next to me when my time comes, I don't even think I believe in romanticism anymore - I don't need somebody to write love poems for me but somebody to talk and listen to what I have to say. I still will like somebody to hug and kiss me, to cuddle and have fun with, a friend that can also be my lover, somebody to get along with but that passionate, feel madly in love feeling, I don't want it, I don't even think it is in me anymore. I might care for somebody again someday, I might really like somebody but I don't believe in "been madly in love" anymore.
I gave it all once, at the end I gave more than I should and got nothing in return, I'm not giving it all once more cause I don't want to loose it all once again.
Sadly I don't believe in that love anymore, I don't believe in forevers and always, maybe passionate but not undying love. I don't need anybody to die for me but somebody next to me when my time comes, I don't even think I believe in romanticism anymore - I don't need somebody to write love poems for me but somebody to talk and listen to what I have to say. I still will like somebody to hug and kiss me, to cuddle and have fun with, a friend that can also be my lover, somebody to get along with but that passionate, feel madly in love feeling, I don't want it, I don't even think it is in me anymore. I might care for somebody again someday, I might really like somebody but I don't believe in "been madly in love" anymore.
I gave it all once, at the end I gave more than I should and got nothing in return, I'm not giving it all once more cause I don't want to loose it all once again.
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i agree with you. i was with my stbx since i was 15 and truely believed we would always be together. but after years of being hurt over and over with one thing or another i truely do not believe that there is an undying love out there. i am even scared to look. i don\'t know if i will ever be ready to look.
sending you hugs.... :}
Why couldn\'t I have meet you so long ago. I know this sounds weird coming from a guy but you have the same desires I do. Why is it so hard to find? The simple things mean so much yet they are skipped altogether and we are left hurt.
You won\'t feel this way forever. I promise. (((HUGS))))
I guess I\'m the hopeless romantic type, not in the \"composing sonnets\" way (though maybe if I had been we\'d still be together, who knows?) but in that I refuse to stop believing in it. In spite of everything I\'ve been through I still believe love conquers all, if both parties want it to. I still believe in undying love, because I know that\'s what I have for her, even if she doesn\'t. I still believe in forevers and always, because you can\'t prove something doesn\'t exist through one failed attempt to find it.
In the end, I have to keep believing, because if it doesn\'t exist, then what\'s the point?
so i cant call you pooh bear? :) i understand - i want all of those things too. i cant even think about it now - even after 14 months it is such a foreign concept to me. who knew i was such a work in progress? i am still not where i want to be mentally/physically. and i have no idea what my faith has in store for me in regards to meeting someone new. i do feel like by learning to love me i am filling up some of the emptiness i expected someone else to. its been eyeopening to say the least.
i am sorry you are hurting today. xoxo