DO not want to face today

Today is the COURT DAY!  This weekend was not good. Things have been amicable up until Friday. I am pretty much on call 24/7 with my work and have been for years. Sleep with the phone within arms reach. On Friday at Midnight the Wife started calling me on the phone from the kitchen to come explain things to her about the divorce papers that she and her lawyer have had for over a month. A Call every Hour all night to get up and walk into the kitchen to explain something. I know she was as stressed as I have been and it was her way of dealing with it all. I have spent the past week on an emotional roller costar. Breaking out in tears over countless triggers.
The wife did not come home last night, stayed with a girlfriend. The she said she will just meet me at the Court House. I thought we could drive together kind of like we did to our wedding ( I still had HOPE). Well I have to go home and change and get back into town. Please send prayers of strength to get me through this day. Man Do I need a hug and a shoulder!