Divorce sucks

I lay here thinking, why am I were i

I am today. What could I have done differently? Then I realize that I’m not perfect and i did apologize for what i did wrong and do my best to change. But he’s so negative and bitter. He thinks everyones life is better than his. I tell him, we have our home and our family, not in the best health but it could be a lot worse. We have a lot to be thankful for. But he doesn’t see all that. He just wants to be divorced. I’ve been packing everything for thw last several weeks, but i have decided that I don’t want to leave until i can take everything with me so that I won’t have to come back. But i have no idea how long that’s going to take