Good Lord, how codependent can I possibly be? After years my divorce will be final this month. Even after all the terrible things that happened between us, I can't seem to completely let go of the past. All of the bad times are counter-balanced by the good in my memories. We had such a wonderful relationship early on... of course there were the typical diffulties, but there was so much love between us. Everyone said we seemed like the "perfect" couple. But, both of us had important personal issues we never addressed earlier in our lives. I faced mine though, and try to improve everyday, with varying degrees of success. I'm gay to the core, but there are so many other components of my heart. I wish I could let go of her completely, and I believe she wishes the same. There is still a twinge of pain when I see her... a lot of regret. Do you only get one shot at a "great" love? Is there just second-best after that? My feelings waver back and forth... some very progressive days... some days I slide backward.