Disgusted

I just joined this group because I spent way too much money at the casino tonight. I vow its my very last time. The problem is this, my relative bugs me to go out as she's alone (hubby in a nursing home) and she doesn't feel guilty about going to the casino rather than a bar.  I keep telling her that I will go out for supper with her but don't want to gamble. I'm just tired of losing. This time I stayed away from it for 2 weeks. Tonight I was tired of staying in so joined her for supper. When your there, you will gamble, what else can you do. I hate losing and I keep putting more and more money in hoping to win. I do once in a blue moon and its not much. I have taken a vow here and now, its my last time. I have tried to get her to go out somewhere else but nope, she won't. She loves the casino and it's ok for her because she has money, I don't. Right now my credit cards are maxed and I feel terrible. My cousin continues to lose but still won't stop. Just because she only loses a hundred or so each time she goes, she thinks she doesn't have a problem but I know we both do. I am kicking myself so much tonight because I was doing so well by staying away. Well this time, I've had it. I"m never going back. I may lose my only friend but I don't care.  I never thought I would be in this position at this stage of my life.  I feel helpless and sad.