Discombobulated!

 
Boy, did I feel discombobulated yesterday! First, I was stirred up by some backhanded comment my sister made on FB (which could either be 1-passive-agressive, or 2-nothing at all) and by my DH talking over me when I expressed my opinion about something the kids might do (I said "we'll see", which for me really does mean that, but he completely dismissed that...grrrr!). Then there was a ton of things to do at work, one on top of another. Not to mention doing some of my own personal finances.
 
But now it's all settled. At least the logistical stuff. As far as DH's dismissals & such, I'm coming to the point where my attitude is: why bother sharing an opinion if it's just going to be dismissed? I realize that there can be disagreements, but dismissals? I don't really dig that! The sad thing is, that it seems that at times he wants to be close, but I can't get close if he's just gonna cut me down. To be close, I need to feel safe emotionally. I don't.
 
Last night, I wondered if I was going to have an ugly confrontation with my son. He kept promising & promising to get off the internet & kept staying on & on (fortunately a safe site, but still, time for bed!). Long story short & circular arguments aside, it finally got to the point where I unplugged the internet & wireless routers & went to bed. I thought for sure he'd take a major fit & freak out (my heart pounding the whole time). But I thought to myself: I can't be held hostage by this kid. Turns out that he didn't freak out, but just went to bed.
 
So *pat on the back* for facing my fears!
 
As far as being discombobulated, it's funny how these days/feelings come & go. I guess I need to remember as I'm going through it that this too shall pass.