Disaster
I knew growing up I shouldn't be selfish and try to be married. I know better but fell deeply for someone. I've been married for 13 years. However the past 8 he leaves me and enters the arms of another woman. I know I'm to blame for this but it's breaking me. He left again last night. A few months ago he cheated without leaving me first then on halloween left the house and spent 6 hours at a strip club. He tells me how horrible I am and I having borderline personality disorder on top of everything else cant stand to be left and abandoned, so I fight to keep him. It's amazing how you can be there for people when they need you but when youre in need no one is there not even your family.
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i\'m sorry to read this. i\'m coming to the end of an abusive relationship too. no matter how much we instinctively tell ourselves we need them, i think we can make it just fine or our own. i won\'t give up if you won\'t. hugs.
I\'m sorry your relationship is ending but if it is for the better of your soul then maybe it will be ok. I know I should keep things ended but somehow I always end up going back. I feel foolish. I know how this story ends and yet I still try to rewrite it. I feel lost and alone in the dark. But I am not only here to help me. If you ever need to talk I\'m here and maybe help you push through. Hugs for you and your kind heart