disappointed

Hey there . Me again.

I know it has been a while.  Just so much going on lately.  The holidays were rough.  I was too exhausted to really care.  i barely managed to get everyone a gift. 

My beloved lab was killed in November.  That was devastating.  She was my unofficial service dog.  She just knew when I needed her. 

My wonderful husband has been strange lately.  I know he will tell me it is all in my head.  That doesn't explain the used condom found in the washer.  No it could not belong to anyone else.  After I found that he was so guilty.  He hugged me and paid me all kinds of attention.  That lasted a week.  Tonight he was texting late.  I know it was his girlfriend.  When he finished, he rolled over and hugged me and loved on me like he was guilty.  His heart was also racing.  I am not stupid.  I am just trying to figure out how I am going to move on with just me and my daughter.

It's late, I can't sleep.  I think I can cash in on one of my life insurance policies. I am going to declare bankruptcy.  I just have to time this all.  I then will be on my way out the door.  At first, with the condom incident, I tried to shrug it off as my imagination.  Gut instincts dont lie and I need to listen to mine for a change.