dinner
yesterday we had dinner as siblings at my sisters house and somehow my son was invited. i thought it would be like our other christmas dinners where my parents and us siblings got together without any kids. so i found another babysitter for my grandkids so i could go. when i got there my son and his family were there. so much for needing a sitter. i was soooo angry that i made an excuse that i only had a sitter until nine and that i would have to leave to get them. so i didn't talk to anyone really and sat away from the group anytime i could. i sat reading my new book "i may be bi-polar but i aint crazy" it is a book of poems written how a true bi-polar is. if there is any one out there that doesn't understand bi-polar this is a short and good read.
today i went to church and found out that it was at 10 not 11 so i missed the christmas services. i had a gift for a friend that is a guy, but had missed getting him at church so i had to go home and find the ward list. once, found i went and dropped it off at his house. boy was i nervous to do something like that. but i did and i will see what comes of it. i hope it wasn't too forward but i really like him and to find a guy at my age is great. on the outside he is a lot like me. overweight but he has the most beautiful eyes and that lets you see what is inside someone. with all of my baggage and mentaal illness i would never marry again but it is nice to have such a good hearted friend.
the nightmares have returned and they don't make much sense. i wrote down some of what happened, but i will need my counselor to help me through it. i am scared to go to bed tonight as onnce these start they seem to continue.
i guess that is what is going on for now. hugggs to all.
today i went to church and found out that it was at 10 not 11 so i missed the christmas services. i had a gift for a friend that is a guy, but had missed getting him at church so i had to go home and find the ward list. once, found i went and dropped it off at his house. boy was i nervous to do something like that. but i did and i will see what comes of it. i hope it wasn't too forward but i really like him and to find a guy at my age is great. on the outside he is a lot like me. overweight but he has the most beautiful eyes and that lets you see what is inside someone. with all of my baggage and mentaal illness i would never marry again but it is nice to have such a good hearted friend.
the nightmares have returned and they don't make much sense. i wrote down some of what happened, but i will need my counselor to help me through it. i am scared to go to bed tonight as onnce these start they seem to continue.
i guess that is what is going on for now. hugggs to all.
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It would be interesting to see what others here at DS would think about some of your dreams. Is your doctor a Freudian or a Jungian therapist? There is a big difference. Freudians want to completely cure any neuroses altogether and this takes decades or never fully done in one\'s lifetime. Jungians see neurosis as something we need to learn to deial with and to accept. There are many factors that are different overall, with Jungians looking at the overall symbols of all people in the world and using them to guide patients through the therapy as well as \"dealing\" with and acceptting one\'s neurosis such that it does not take over one\'s life. Hugs. Neesie
I don\'t know which because that is over my head. i do know he has a PhD.not sure which field but i do know if he can put oneself in the hospital. we work on ideas that i bring up and he will walk me through my issues. my dreams are partial but here goes...I dreamed that there was someone in my room. i struggled in this room. i saw a post it note and when i wrote the pen went through the note and went into me. i tried to fight off the person and it was me. i slipped back into my body. ..............next....i woke up to a ;long distance call for the wrong person in the middle of the night turned to find a tv on my bed and a log with secret hiding places the most beautiful of one was opened into a view of baby birds flying off on a sunshine day.. these are parts of the dreams that i remember and again there is something really evil in the dreams that i can\'t recall.