Difficult decision
I've decided after much thought that I'm going to voluntarily be an inpatient of a psychiatric ward. I'm scared. Mostly because it means being away from my cats and dog for who knows. But I just can't cope right now.
I'm terrified really. The most I've ever spent away from my cats is a day. Who knows how long I'll be gone. I just know I can't continue this way. And Monty'll have to go out in the days and come in at night, and Blossom and Jacob won't know what to make of it.
And then will come the ridicule. "Lauren's in the nuthouse" mum'll say. I won't tell many people. My job advisor and my best friend, but that's it. And I'll request that no one visit me. I'll make phone calls to mum to see how my cats and dog are doing, but that's it. There's a good chance I'll be spending Christmas at a Psychiatric Hospital, joy -_-; Probably be the best Christmas ever though.
I'm terrified really. The most I've ever spent away from my cats is a day. Who knows how long I'll be gone. I just know I can't continue this way. And Monty'll have to go out in the days and come in at night, and Blossom and Jacob won't know what to make of it.
And then will come the ridicule. "Lauren's in the nuthouse" mum'll say. I won't tell many people. My job advisor and my best friend, but that's it. And I'll request that no one visit me. I'll make phone calls to mum to see how my cats and dog are doing, but that's it. There's a good chance I'll be spending Christmas at a Psychiatric Hospital, joy -_-; Probably be the best Christmas ever though.
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