Different
This was a strange day (4-19-08). In fact this whole time of coming off a binge was different from any that I have had in the past. I have had a very strange sense of calm about things. I haven't beaten myself up like I did in the past. Could it be growth or something else? I wonder. I have been angry for stupidly picking up the bottle when I had the tools to use to prevent this. I know there are people that were hurt and disappointed in me because of my drinking again. I feel bad because of that. I want to fix it but I know I can't. The only hope I have of regaining that trust, if it can even happen, is to stay sober and prove to them that I am done drinking. I guess I will just have to see what happens and hope for the best.
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i think that the peace and calm is from the knowing that you can beat this, and you have tools to use, and that you realy dont want to go back there, correct me if i\'m wrong, i\'m so pleased for you for you are showing great strenght