The shot didn't work! Still in pain. Still have to walk with 2 canes. Supposed to go back to work tomorrow, but I can't walk far enough to get from the parking lot to the building. Still tired and weak. Can't see how I'll be able to keep this job and if I can't, what can I do? I don't wamt to live as a cripple. Haven't been able to get hold of Vickie to talk to her about this. Want to die. Have figured out how I can die and Foxy live. It depends on how long it will take for people to realize I'm in trouble. I can put her outside with a big dish of food and water, then blow out the pilot lights on the stove and turn on the gas. Something's got to change or this will happen. I will not be a burden on my sisters.