did feel better

Tried eatting speggetti but made my pain come back, my mood is depressed. Its my bipolar. Up an down Just hard to get out of when u dont have friends out of ds. I want to feel better but am just in a down mood. Bad dream last night. Was alone but then my middle son came home at 3 drunk an wanted to talk. So i talked to him .it makes me sad to see him this way. He wants help but wont talk to someone i got to wait till friday to see new p doc. Just looking at my face with my dentures in an i dont like it. I look so old. I want to look differnt, not this way! Sad right now .my husband says like, arnt yuor pants to tight. Why does he say stuff like that. Ok, then let me buy new clothes. But... money, money. I just dont like me.