Diary Instalment: 18th/19th June 2014
18th/19th June 2014
Wokie Up: 18th June, 9:30pmSlept At: 19th June, 1:40am
Wokie Up, Cassie Had Written An Poem An Showed It To Me, Its Really Awesome :)
Cassie (7:47pm):My reflection just never seems to go away, Why is being perfect just a cliche, If you pretend to be happy eventually it will be true, But why can't I just see this all the way through, My imperfects are perfectly clear, For a second they're gone, but then reappear, Looking in this mirror is something I just dread, My insecurities are taking control of the thoughts in my head, You tell me you know, you understand, But you're just hurting yourself by holding my hand, If you don't want to talk to me anymore it's okay, Leave me be please, there's really nothing you can say, Are these hormones, or possibly depression? Because being perfect has become an unhealthy obsession, So here I stand in front of this mirror, Maybe if I stare long enough it will all just disappear, But I don't want to annoy you anymore with my problems, I know everyone deals with their demons and goblins, Maybe I should just tell my reflection goodbye, Because all it's really done is caused me to cry, Why does purging seem to be the answer, I should just be thankful I'm not suffering from something like cancerYou told me I was a beautiful blessing, All the qualities that I'm possessing, But my head turns your compliments into lies, Because you're not seeing what I see through my eyes, I should just leave before I make you more upset, I hope being frustrated with me is something you can forget, So in front of this mirror I will stay Untill my reflection just goes away
Cassie (22:44am):I'm obsessed with your voice
Radocto (22:45am):Really? I Dont Like Mai Voice, It Sounds Dumb lol
Cassie (22:46am):NOOOOO!!!Your voice is my faveotie sound right nowThat sounds weird hahaI mean it's reallyNice^_^
Louise Messaged Me An I Pretend Mai Berthday Was Yesterday For A Laugh, It Was Funny, She Was Relieved When I Told Her It Wasnt, I Have A Mean Sense Of Humor, She Was Worried She Missed It x)
Louise:When's your birthday?
Radocto:20th June, Hbu? Well It Was The 17th June But Im Having Party On 20th, So Its Basically Then x)
Louise:Yesterday was your birthday?
Radocto:YesYou Forgot :(
Louise:I didn't know. You never told meI knew your age but never your both daybirthday :( *
Radocto:*Cough* 13th November *Cough*
Louise::(I'm sowwieeeI didn't know I was told....HAPPY LATE 20 BIRTHDAY!!! (I did get the 20 bit right...right....? )
Radocto:I Was 19 Yesterday
Louise:I thought you were already 19....
Radocto:lmao Awwwww Im Kidding Berthday Is On 17th January I Sorry x)I Have A Mean Sense Of Humor lol
Louise:... No fair. You're a meanie.... :(
Chatted To Louise An Cassie For A Long Time While Eating Some Cake.
Cassie (10:32pm):You sound lovely!This is kinda going to sound creepyBut you taught me how to play piano today x)
Cassie (10:45am):Your voice is my faveotie sound right nowThat sounds weird hahaI mean it's reallyNice^_^
Cassie Was Gonna Make A Video Of Herself Reading The Poem, She Tried For 3 Hours But Didnt Like Any Of Them, I Said She Didnt Have To Do It So She Didnt lol Then She Sent This :3
Cassie (3:34am):I made a videoAnd I've worked up the nerve to post itSo I'll do it but only because I love you!
She Said Her Poem On The Video, It Was So Cute, It Was Nice To See What She's Like In Rea, How She Talks, Moves, Etc ^-^ I Made An ARTPOP Melody Which Is 16 Minutes An Has Pieces Of All GaGa's Songs From ARTPOP :D I Had Some Sausages, Eggs An Rice Before Mum Went To Work, Then I Had A Bath. Seen On Facebook That GaGa Got A New Tattoo, The First On The Right Side Of Her Body, Its Of A Trumpet That Tony Bennet Drew :)
Watched Sooty Then Listened To Some P!nk While Talking To Louise, She Was Bored At Form. Cassie Told Me She Has To Have Blood Taken Todai, She's Scared :(
Wokie Up: 18th June, 9:30pmSlept At: 19th June, 1:40am
Wokie Up, Cassie Had Written An Poem An Showed It To Me, Its Really Awesome :)
Cassie (7:47pm):My reflection just never seems to go away, Why is being perfect just a cliche, If you pretend to be happy eventually it will be true, But why can't I just see this all the way through, My imperfects are perfectly clear, For a second they're gone, but then reappear, Looking in this mirror is something I just dread, My insecurities are taking control of the thoughts in my head, You tell me you know, you understand, But you're just hurting yourself by holding my hand, If you don't want to talk to me anymore it's okay, Leave me be please, there's really nothing you can say, Are these hormones, or possibly depression? Because being perfect has become an unhealthy obsession, So here I stand in front of this mirror, Maybe if I stare long enough it will all just disappear, But I don't want to annoy you anymore with my problems, I know everyone deals with their demons and goblins, Maybe I should just tell my reflection goodbye, Because all it's really done is caused me to cry, Why does purging seem to be the answer, I should just be thankful I'm not suffering from something like cancerYou told me I was a beautiful blessing, All the qualities that I'm possessing, But my head turns your compliments into lies, Because you're not seeing what I see through my eyes, I should just leave before I make you more upset, I hope being frustrated with me is something you can forget, So in front of this mirror I will stay Untill my reflection just goes away
Cassie (22:44am):I'm obsessed with your voice
Radocto (22:45am):Really? I Dont Like Mai Voice, It Sounds Dumb lol
Cassie (22:46am):NOOOOO!!!Your voice is my faveotie sound right nowThat sounds weird hahaI mean it's reallyNice^_^
Louise Messaged Me An I Pretend Mai Berthday Was Yesterday For A Laugh, It Was Funny, She Was Relieved When I Told Her It Wasnt, I Have A Mean Sense Of Humor, She Was Worried She Missed It x)
Louise:When's your birthday?
Radocto:20th June, Hbu? Well It Was The 17th June But Im Having Party On 20th, So Its Basically Then x)
Louise:Yesterday was your birthday?
Radocto:YesYou Forgot :(
Louise:I didn't know. You never told meI knew your age but never your both daybirthday :( *
Radocto:*Cough* 13th November *Cough*
Louise::(I'm sowwieeeI didn't know I was told....HAPPY LATE 20 BIRTHDAY!!! (I did get the 20 bit right...right....? )
Radocto:I Was 19 Yesterday
Louise:I thought you were already 19....
Radocto:lmao Awwwww Im Kidding Berthday Is On 17th January I Sorry x)I Have A Mean Sense Of Humor lol
Louise:... No fair. You're a meanie.... :(
Chatted To Louise An Cassie For A Long Time While Eating Some Cake.
Cassie (10:32pm):You sound lovely!This is kinda going to sound creepyBut you taught me how to play piano today x)
Cassie (10:45am):Your voice is my faveotie sound right nowThat sounds weird hahaI mean it's reallyNice^_^
Cassie Was Gonna Make A Video Of Herself Reading The Poem, She Tried For 3 Hours But Didnt Like Any Of Them, I Said She Didnt Have To Do It So She Didnt lol Then She Sent This :3
Cassie (3:34am):I made a videoAnd I've worked up the nerve to post itSo I'll do it but only because I love you!
She Said Her Poem On The Video, It Was So Cute, It Was Nice To See What She's Like In Rea, How She Talks, Moves, Etc ^-^ I Made An ARTPOP Melody Which Is 16 Minutes An Has Pieces Of All GaGa's Songs From ARTPOP :D I Had Some Sausages, Eggs An Rice Before Mum Went To Work, Then I Had A Bath. Seen On Facebook That GaGa Got A New Tattoo, The First On The Right Side Of Her Body, Its Of A Trumpet That Tony Bennet Drew :)
Watched Sooty Then Listened To Some P!nk While Talking To Louise, She Was Bored At Form. Cassie Told Me She Has To Have Blood Taken Todai, She's Scared :(
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