Determine to have a good year
I think my head is against me.
I was doing so good, No nasty thoughts, but lately, Its all bad. The same, Slips of Saying means things to myself, out loud. My little boy hearing it.
The usually "your trash" "Stupid whore" and other degrading comments to my self, appearance, intelligence, everything. Suicidal thoughts.
I feel like no one wants me on this website, and they all pushed me off before, and now I am back because I didn't know where else to go for support, but I don't feel like I get any support from here, either. Everyone Hates me. Whatever. At least I can talk to myself in my journal and not be hurt by being ignored.
I was doing so good, No nasty thoughts, but lately, Its all bad. The same, Slips of Saying means things to myself, out loud. My little boy hearing it.
The usually "your trash" "Stupid whore" and other degrading comments to my self, appearance, intelligence, everything. Suicidal thoughts.
I feel like no one wants me on this website, and they all pushed me off before, and now I am back because I didn't know where else to go for support, but I don't feel like I get any support from here, either. Everyone Hates me. Whatever. At least I can talk to myself in my journal and not be hurt by being ignored.
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I tell people well my loved ones I literally hate myself and that I am disgusting, and it is all because of the stuff I done when I was not myself. I was on this website about 4 years ago before I was diagnosed and let me tell you I was so manic I ended up having someone tell me they were contacting the local authorities and after I came to my senses and realized some of the things I wrote it was horrible but came from the deepest darkest depths from my soul. I was screaming out for help and well I am back again and I will not ignore you :)