Determination

Even as I wrote this title, I had to doubt whether I truly was determined. My stomach is already full with butterflies, and I have hours till I actually have to go to Thursday's Young People's Meeting.Well I do want to be determined! Because if I am not determined I have nothing to drive me to fulfil, what is unfulfilled. I am trying to calm myself by doing stretching and breathing exercises that I got from this book I am reading called Painfully Shy.It is a very good book. It analyses everything to do with Social Anxiety, and has good tips. Like writing out all the mean things you can say to yourself throughout the day. (and when my day is bad, I say many mean things to myself.) But what I really like the most so far is this Chinese Proverb that they wrote in the book. " Be not afraid of going slowly, be afraid only of standing still." And I truly am afraid of standing still. It is like I'm stuck in a never ending spiral, going round and round, with no end.Tonight I want to have the determination to end this spiral, with the Lord's strength with me anything is possible.