Desperate.

Because of my stbx.... I am finding myself in ahard position again. Now my cellphone is cut off because of his wanting to split. Sohe didn't pay the amount he said he was going to because he "didn't have the money" and I'M the one to suffer for it. Again. Story of my whole marriage. I am so tired of getting kicked around and I'm starting to lose sleep at night wondering how I am going to take care of all this.I'm not able to make it check tocheck even without becoming overdrawn in my bank account. I'm still trying to find a buyer for my engagement ring. I'm going to ther gym after work today so that I can cancel that and try and save myselfTHAT $25 a month. I am at my wit's end.The end of my rope. Whatever you want to consider it. I have no f%$@ing clue how to fixit. I can't see asliver lining. I can't see how I'm going to fix this andsave myself. I feel like I'm suffocating. I can't take this.