Depression stinks
Depression stinks. I feel so out of place sometimes. I wish I could be normal like so many others. I ask myself "why do I have to be like this" why can't I be normal. I'm my own worst enemy at times. I can't seem to get myself motivated to change. I don't like change. And because of that I've allowed so many people to walk over me. And I get frustrated when others don't understand my pain.
Like if I say I'm not feeling well, it's like it's a contest. They'll say they aren't either and it makes me feel like I should just keep my mouth shut and suffer in silence. Cause what is the use. No one really gives a damn.
It's like at work, whenever someone asks me how I am I just smile and say I'm fine. Cause I know if I went into what is really going on inside my heart and head I'd get a deer in the headlights look. Or a polite nod, but I know they could really care less. They have their own problems and mine don't amount to a hill of beans.
Like if I say I'm not feeling well, it's like it's a contest. They'll say they aren't either and it makes me feel like I should just keep my mouth shut and suffer in silence. Cause what is the use. No one really gives a damn.
It's like at work, whenever someone asks me how I am I just smile and say I'm fine. Cause I know if I went into what is really going on inside my heart and head I'd get a deer in the headlights look. Or a polite nod, but I know they could really care less. They have their own problems and mine don't amount to a hill of beans.
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I know depression stinks. I do not let people walk on me.I do get depressed cause I am tired of them trying. Really it seems sometimes like we just cant win. I hope you feel better! Do something nice for yourself.
dear Lily, we all are here, and we understand. You\'re a very good person, you have a wonderful heart, and you can, have happiness, you deserve. i know depression can really get us down, and make things very emotional, and can make us feel like we don\'t have anything going for us, but we do. You\'re strong, very strong, and you have overcome a lot, including loss. you always remained strong, and hopeful. that\'s a very special quality you have. Always remember that :) sometimes, all it takes, a good turn, in our days, or weeks, and we can see, there\'s new paths, and there\'s always hope. what we carry with us, the strength, and progress we\'ve gained, that\'s always with us :)
I\'m planning on doing some baking. The community pool opening party is on Sat. So I\'m going to bake some lemon bars. I\'ve never tried making them before.