Depression & sin

hello my name is Brittany and I've been going through a break up with a female ( I was a sinner ) I'm recovering from that chapter of my life I've had depression since 2010 since my mother pass away it wasn't that heavy on my chest till I start getting in relationships at a young age and I've been cheated on so many time and left alone it's not my first time going through depression today I'm getting over sin and a break up at once and it's hard but the right thing to do cause I fear going to hell so it was the right thing to do but it's hard opening up to a new chapter of my life and seeing her move on and love another but it's gone take a while to move along but what I will not do is go back into sin and date her again it's just a lot of anger and loneliness that's build up inside that I need to let out but ion know how