Depression is leading to Loneliness

I have been fighting the deepest depression Ive ever experienced in the last year.  A good friend of mine just told me they were deleting my number because they could not hear about my life anymore.  I guess they were justified in doing so.  I started a new job 3 weeks ago and my job is suffering I feel because Im zoning out to cope with everything right now.  I zone out to where I get numb and dont think of anything.  I finally got an appt to get meds but that is a month away and I'm not sure how I'm going to make it until then.  

I just dont know how long I can continue to go on this way.  I know things will get better but it seems everything has just crashed on me.  I am trying not to put so many conditions on myself as I will fail and the anxiety that causes....