depressed and frustrated

Today I am depressed and frustrated. I've been over spending and that alwayss gets me in trouble.  The zyprexa makes me hungry all day and night. My stomach is acidic and taking meds for that.  My TMJ IS ACTING OUT. I'm so worried I'm going to jail.  I was convicted for 5 counts of thief by taking.   My business failed and we owe people money.  The prosicutor got involved because its alot of money.  Ok I wish they would tell me something.  All I can do is pray for probation and restitution.   My heart sinks into my chest.  I want to pay the people back.  Unfortunately since it went criminal instead of civil I hade to pay a lawyer. Crap I am so worried.  AND SAD. being BP and all the other stuff I feel like a mummy all wrapped up!  An I don't mean for holloween either.  I wish I could turn into a bat and fly away though. tee hee