DEPRESSED AND ALL ALONE
JUST WHEN YOU THINK ONE WOULD CHANGE SHE IS JUST AS HORRIBLE AS EVER, SHE TREATS ME ALWAYS LIKE DIRT, IS ALWAYS SO DARN MEAN, I HATE HER EVILNESS, SHE THINKS I'M HER CHILD INSTEAD OF THE OTHER WAY AROUND. I'M SO DEPRESSED, SHE SHOULD OF JUST LET ME DIE WHEN I WAS HAVING THE STROKE, I WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER OFF. WHY IS IT SO DARN EXSPENCIVE TO LIVE IN HOUSING, WHY CAN'T THE GOVERNMENT HELP THE POOR PEOPLE? MY DAUGHTER AND HER BOYFRIEND MAKE MORE MONEY IN A WEEK THEN I GET PAID IN A MONTH FROM SSD, AND THEY CHARGE ME PLUS ABUSE ME, ITS HER, SHE IS JUST PURE EVIL................
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Dear Mamabear, you are such a good and loving person. None of this is your fault. You are obviously a loving and nurturing mother and grandmother and friend.
As for the government who knows why they only seem to care about the rich getting richer and not the rest of us.
As for your daughter. What is it about our children who we love more than anything that they can hurt us so much.
I know you are a faith filled person. Is there someone at your church who can help you out. There has to be somewhere you can go.
But keep in mind the fact that your daughter didn\'t let you die when you had the stroke means she does love you. Just doesn\'t know how to show her love yet.
Donna
God Bless you and relieve you of your stress and worries. Is there other housing assistance available? I hope you can see a way to a more peaceful place to live soon.
MAMABEAR, THANK GOD SHE DID\'NT LET YOU DIE...EVERYONE NEEDS YOUR CARING WORDS AND HUGS. I\'LL PRAY FOR YOU......
Im sorry you are this down! I understand some of what you are saying. I do hope things get better for you soon. I will pray that your Daughter will open her heart to you.
Mamabear you have a heart of gold but you need to protect yourself and dont let anyone treat you like this, Is she aware of her behaviour ? have you discussed this with her ? i hope you can work this through but you need to do something or the situation wont change, take care x
It may be messed up mixed up feelings she didn\'t deal with during your initial illness she may have realized how much she cares and is running from her pain forcing you to hate her so that it is easier when you die? Sounds nuts I know but sometimes to cope we tell ourselves some mighty strange things. Have you discussed it with her? Or tried? Did she used to be loving? What made that change and maybe you will have some answers. Too. could it be she resents you because you are so loving and she doesn\'t think she can ever measure up?
Just possible, not so reasonable things that emotions cause us to feel and think later.
Just ideas. It is hard to imagine anyone coming out a meanie when you are so nice...you see what I am saying?
She loves you but...can\'t deal with the now or the future or even possibly can\'t forgive herself for something she feels let you and herself down.
People are so simple and yet complicated too.
Hope that you are doing much better soon and that you can forgive her of whatever and vice versa.
Love Rhea