Depressed

feel like I'm all alone have nobody to talk to my son so nobody wants to hang around me they call me a bitch all the time and I'm negative but I'm depressed all the time he has my car all the time feel like I'm all alone have nobody to talk to my son so nobody wants to hang around me they call me a bitch all the time and I'm negative but I'm depressed all the time he has my car all the time I have no way to go anywhere except dialysis I'm just tired tired of being left  alone if I just disappeared would anybody even care what anybody would notice if I just took off and not ever come back I would love to go to the beach and just sit on the beach and just think about my life I'm going to hotel somewhere just get away nobody understands how I feel I don't have anybody to talk to you I don't have any friends  I wish I had somebody to talk to you anytime of the day or night like I used to with my friend Jody was a lot of how really miss her and I really could use your support right now besides biological mom she wants to take over Dillon my son