depressed

really tired of being sad. just venting. i know i need to think positive and do things that make me happy just having bad bad day. im just lonely plain and simple. got biopsy and just feel so alone. guess im just scared that results will be bad and i will have noone. is it self pity is it being needy? i know people care i really do im jjust confused and know i need to move on cause i feel i need more but she is all i have allowed myself to have. just wanted to vent having pity party