depressed

Well heck, I am feeling really depressed and just want to go and leave my home and go somewhere no one knows me. I am just so depressed and tired of doctors. I also can not believe that sometimes depression can be caused by others crap and how they treat you. I feel like I have been used and abused and do not have the friends I wish I did. Well second thought maybe it is better not to have friends. I also know my depression is also me in general. i am  trying to stay up beat but would really like to run about now and do not want anyone brothering me at all. Just leave me the hell alone and let me be.