just read your blog CM and yes i totally relate... i think i\'m in a different place right now because after a long time of protecting myself in the denial i finally took the acceptance route and though the fear is still there i feel a little stronger on that path... feel like i can face the challenges a little stronger... but i do relate to what you\'re saying and the anger... well i sorta like the anger it makes me want to fight this even harder...
stay strong!!! paula
Oh yes - that\'s me alright! I\'m in the next house along living quite happily at - 2 Denial Place, Hedinsands, Inabubble.
My problem is I feel as though I\'m doing great, exercising, being positive, proactive, pushing forward, improving, educating myself, taking back control - then something happens and all my positivity and control is revealed to be an illusion.
Reality leaves me feeling far too vulnerable which leads to fear, fear of the future. I find if I take bite size pieces I can usually handle it better, a whole chunk usually has me gulping for air.
As for Hope, I\'m full of it, I\'m not only Hopeful, I\'m positive things are going to workout, I know they are!
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just read your blog CM and yes i totally relate... i think i\'m in a different place right now because after a long time of protecting myself in the denial i finally took the acceptance route and though the fear is still there i feel a little stronger on that path... feel like i can face the challenges a little stronger... but i do relate to what you\'re saying and the anger... well i sorta like the anger it makes me want to fight this even harder...
stay strong!!! paula
Managed to read your blog CM,
Oh yes - that\'s me alright! I\'m in the next house along living quite happily at - 2 Denial Place, Hedinsands, Inabubble.
My problem is I feel as though I\'m doing great, exercising, being positive, proactive, pushing forward, improving, educating myself, taking back control - then something happens and all my positivity and control is revealed to be an illusion.
Reality leaves me feeling far too vulnerable which leads to fear, fear of the future. I find if I take bite size pieces I can usually handle it better, a whole chunk usually has me gulping for air.
As for Hope, I\'m full of it, I\'m not only Hopeful, I\'m positive things are going to workout, I know they are!
Take care CM,
Your friend ........... and neighbour!
Julie