Delay and not denial? Maybe...

I’m sure many of you angel mom’s (that’s what I call mommies who miscarried) use to or still watch TLC’s a baby story and bringing home baby! When I was TTC before and for the short while I was pregnant, I would anticipate watching that show as soon as I can! Now with the loss, I have been avoiding that show that I use to love. I feel with this loss, I’ve been robbed of some of my joy and peace. I miss that feeling of one of God’s greatest wonders growing inside me. And when I watch mothers and babies on TV or out and about its not a feeling of jealousy but sadness because I feel I’ve been deprived of that and it's a hurt that cuts deep in my soul.  My prayer is that delay is not denial and I will be pregnant soon and have a normal and happy pregnancy, and I can move on and enjoy the things I use to love like a baby story!