Deep thoughts

First day when thinking that life has no more sens , like if I am going to die nobody will be affected , only my parents but still I feel the bad mood , cry every day ,dream that one day everything will be fine and I can be happy, is it possible? Not in my case... every day I see a smile , I smile back but inside I am crying. Can't blame anybody for my mood but I feel that I am running out of time , not I a talking mood , very tired , tomorrow hard work waiting for me , I am feeling that I collapse but stiil doing it ,if I died while working on site is not sinucide... good night 

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